vxf

lol i’m someones girlfriend now omg

ive not wrote on here for so long. but ive got so much on my mind and i dont feel like i can talk to anyone anymore.

i’m sick of being the girl you just want for a night, wel not even that, just want to kiss because you know that im not good enough for anything else. i’m sick of going out down town and kissing people, before it was fun, and i didnt care. now its different. its meaningless…pointless..empty. i want to fall in love again. i want the romance and the butterflys and that whole thing, i want to be with someone who wants to be with me. 

i dont have anyone anymore. 

no one to turn to, to talk to. i honestly feel so alone. 

theres so many things i want to tell people, i want to scream at them until they listen to me. so they cant block it out and dust me under the carpet. i can’t stand this any more. but whats the use? they won’t understand. not anymore.

i sound like any other teenager who thinks they have all the problems in the world. I know theres plenty of people with other problems, people who have things worse off than me. But just for once, just this once. I want someone to listen to me. I want to be selfish and i want someone to apprieciate how i feel. 

i’m not being dramatic, and i don’t even know why i wrote that because i don’t have to explain myself to any of you people reading this. maybe its for myself. i don’t know. i forget who i am lately.